Narratives about motorcycling on Northern California's back roads; Reflections on the history and geography of the North State; Memoirs and early recollections of youthful visits to towns and forests and mountaintops. Also middle-of-the-road takes on current issues in politics and education. Middle of the road? Isn't that dangerous?
Wednesday, February 12, 2025
Saturday, September 7, 2024
RICKY: ARMED
Unbelievable though it seems to me now, it’s been nearly 25 years. And I still lose sleep.
I served as a principal of an elementary school. I’d been doing this long enough to know that if, whenever possible, I could spend time on the yard at recess, I could minimize the number of second-hand disciplinary accounts I needed to wade through after recesses. Plus, shooting baskets with kids – particularly as poorly as I shot baskets – always served as a positive.
A new fifth grade boy named Ricky presented a particular uniqueness almost from the moment he walked on campus that fall. Handsome as a kid could be, but big and intimidating. Intellectually very, very sharp, but, unable – or, perhaps, unwilling – to be a friend. My goal was to make him mine by interacting, shooting a few hoops and making eye contact whenever possible. It didn’t work. I think he knew I was looking but for some reason, he wouldn’t look back.
After a string of questionable behaviors – running through jump rope games, being overly physical on the court or while in touch football, ‘getting into the face’ of another student – the kid eclipsed my patience when he approached a fourth grader who was playing basketball, grabbed the ball and kicked it across the yard. The littler kid puffed out his chest and said, “Go get that!” at which point Ricky put the kid in a headlock and punched his face not once, not twice but three times. That earned the big boy a three day suspension from school, even though an assault charge and a report to the police might easily have been in order.
Suspensions – the very few that I issued – always required a student-parent conference upon reentry to campus. The conversation at this one was particularly memorable.
Me: I’m glad you’re back at school. This place isn’t complete unless all my students are here.
Mother and child both likely viewed this as condescending. Perhaps it was.
Mom: Ricky has something to ask you.
Me: Go ahead.
Ricky: Why are you always picking one me?
Flabbergasted, I didn’t know quite how to respond. I wasn’t going to argue with the child, I wasn’t going to mention the criminal assault I’d witnessed, though should have. Instead, I just sat there with my mouth hanging open until I released him back to class.
His mom then spent a good five minutes excoriating me for singling out her son. “He comes home and tells me how he’s being bullied all the damned time! And you, you who’s supposed to be in charge, you turn out to be just another male who lets him down!”
Quite the tirade, I thought. The school secretary, having heard the commotion from outside my closed door, agreed.
Later that afternoon, I received an unsolicited phone call from Ricky’s grandfather. He apologized for the behavior of his daughter’s son and for that of his daughter. “The boy’s had a rough time since his father abandoned him and his brother. Really left my daughter in the lurch.” I thanked him for his concern, but he continued. “I’ve decided I need to take a stronger hand in teaching him some respect and responsibility so I’ve decided to take him and his brother up to the ranch an learn ‘em both how to work the animals and maybe learn’ em how to fire a rifle.”
“Fire a rifle?” I don’t think I stammered, but I might have.
“Yeah. Target shooting. Cleaning the thing afterward. I think that’ll help teach ‘em how to be respectful and responsible. Deep down, I know he’s a really good kid.”
My heart had always told me that deep down, they’re all really good kids. But in this case, I didn’t understand the logic. Here was an angry kid, one who had become an expert at posing as the victim when he was the victimizer. Indeed, he was a bully – but one whose behavior was always accepted by his parent. What the hell was learning him how to use a rifle really going to do for him?
I didn’t respond with that question. Instead, I thanked Grandpa for his concern but as I hung up the phone, a distinct chill coursed through my body. This kid potentially could bring a firearm to school and, instead of punching someone his junior, he could pull it out and shoot him. Or he could storm into my office and shoot me.
That sleepless night, I found myself thinking not so much about my own mortality, but that if I were somehow incapacitated, how would I be able to protect my kids out on the yard or in their classrooms? The thought didn’t leave me, even when I transferred from that school site position to an administrative slot in the neighboring district office. Ricky knew where to find me, I was sure.
Retired now some fifteen years, that eerie chill revisits every time some kid gains access to a weapon and makes his way onto a school campus. If I were there, I’d throw myself in front of the kid if I thought it might save the life of another.
That urgent, weird feeling of regard and disregard returned on a recent Monday when news broke of a 14-year-old who took out two fellow students and two math teachers at a high school in Georgia. The kid’s dad reportedly bought him an AR as a birthday gift.
I didn’t sleep well that Monday night. I kept thinking of my boy, Ricky, Even though he could no longer be a threat to me.
About twenty years ago, over a holiday break – several years after Ricky left my elementary school campus – as a junior or senior in high school, his mom found her son hanging from a closet rod in his bedroom with his Sunday-best tie looped around his neck and knotted over the dowel.
Over the course of my 35-plus years in education, I lost five – maybe six – students to early deaths. One with a congenital heart defect. Another slipped over a waterfall. With each, I found myself burrowing into a quiet room where I could shut the door, turn down the lights and simply cry.
Ricky would be no exception.
But I still lose sleep.
© 2024
Church of the Open Road Press
Tuesday, March 24, 2015
WALKING THE FULL BELLY FARM WITH DR. BENJAMIN BLOOM
| Perfunctory Old Truck Picture |
He chuckles, offering a very modest reply and then says something to this effect: It’s relatively simple to engage in all of those levels of thinking when you’re working with your hands in the soil day by day. Our livelihood depends on it. “Schools, I suppose, can’t do this too effectively because of cost, logistics…”
He’s right, of course. Our
students could receive a much more hands on – much better grounded – experience
if schools could somehow be more like farms. They would graduate with a less sterile but far more
heightened sense of how things work and how those things work together.
Friday, August 15, 2014
“Lincoln on Leadership” – A Review
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
SCRABBLING TOGETHER EFFECTIVE COMMUNICATION
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
CULTIVATED IGNORANCE
AT A COMMISSION MEETING for a rural California county, members were asked to approve actions that would support “Smart Growth.” The idea revolves around building communities with more efficient transportation networks, walking paths, bike trails; encouraging use of recycled and renewable materials; and encouraging the development of “Green” industries. The commission was unanimous. They voted it down. “Too much bureaucracy,” one stated. “Loss of local control,” stated another. “Global warming is a myth,” said a third.
It can be argued that it was prudent for these guys to be wary of change. Too frequently our legislative bodies respond what's couched as an urgent need only to end up with a solution that is worse than the problem. That said, however, it is not okay, in the face of mounting evidence, for a public representative to make decisions based upon cultivated ignorance. i.e.: "Global warming is a myth."
CULTIVATED IGNORANCE is something one ‘works at’ by being selective about that which the individual allows to influence his thinking. It breeds in people who are unwilling to change the radio dial, pick up a book or read a newspaper. Folks who get all of their news and information from the Internet are easily infected, too. Typically, folks suffering from C I aren’t in too great a rush to hear the other side of the argument.
Individuals and companies that benefit from the status quo are fans of Cultivated Ignorance. These entities know that if they can convince Joe the Plumber that climate change is a myth, regulation is bad, universal health care will kill grandma, and that tax money is always wasted, Joe will vote against his own and his community’s own best interest. And the wealth will continue to flow.
Just not to Joe. Joe will develop cancer or diabetes. His kid: asthma. Gas will continue to get more expensive. The summer droughts longer; the winter weather weirder and more severe. And the cops may not show up when Joe needs ‘em.
THE CURE FOR CULTIVATED IGNORANCE comes to a well-educated society in the form of scientific research; thoughtful, reasoned discussion; personal introspection absent – if just for moments – those influences that stand to gain from maintenance of the status quo; and a willingness to see change as opportunity.
We do need to take actions locally to stem the impact of our way of life on the planet’s natural systems. Such actions may not be beneficial to those to whom the wealth currently flows, but the eco-system doesn't really give a crap about who has money and who does not. Neither should we, because that’s one thing that probably isn't going to change.
But we should collectively care for our eco-system, which will change. And is.
Saturday, December 5, 2009
A Parable
THE EVENT lurked sure as evil on a moonless night. The darkness, the storm, the lateness of the train’s arrival from Reno.
He’d been told the river was up – roadbed saturated from a week and a half of unseasonably warm rain. He hadn’t known an ancient Douglas Fir uprooted itself, washed down the torrent and loosed the trestle from its footings.
Warned to go light on the throttle, the rookie charged himself, instead, to “make up time.”
© 2009
Church of the Open Road Press







